Leaving my boys!

Oh, I feel so silly. Last night I was dreaming about how happy I was going to be when I got to come back and see my boys...we haven't even left yet. I think I would be going insane if I had to wonder if the person I was leaving them with could handle both of my boys...but she's raised 7 kids and the first 3 were boys, so she has some experience to say the least. Chalk this up to another thing I didn't understand about Motherhood. I remember staying with Robyn and Doug (I don't remember how long we were there, but I know we had to spend at least one night and my parents were out of town for some reason); and I remember seeing my Mom cry when she left and I was like "It's only for a little while and you know that Doug and Robyn will take care of us...they aren't just going to leave us to fend for ourselves." to me it was no different than when we spend the night at their house (which we did ALL the time). But now I understand that it's not the same. If my boys were just spending the night for the fun of it and I were here, I know that if they got too scared I could go get them. If Chris ended up having another seizure (which I'm not really too worried about, it's been long enough that I don't think he's going to have anymore), but IF he did, I could go be with him. So many "IF this happened or IF that happened" I could be there in an hour. But just knowing that I can't. Knowing that if they get scared they just have to tough it out. If Chris has a seizure, we can't just be there. If it was something life-threatening even we could be there in 5 hours (who are we kidding, Jon would be driving and we could be there in 3 or less LOL and I wouldn't stop him from driving like that either). I'm sure it will be quite uneventful, and I know Tamina will know what to do if something did happen. But still, I don't like the thought of my boys being scared and me not being there. Or knowing that Ethan is probably going to think that we left for good. Chris is old enough to understand that we will come back. Ethan, I'm just hoping that he'll be alright with Chris there. I'm not sure how relaxing this "vacation" is going to be. We will see I guess.
Now I don't really have much to say, but I don't want to stop blogging because as soon as I do I have to start doing laundry and packing and trying to make sure I don't forget to pack anything. Yeah right, like that's ever happened in the history of FOREVER! I always forget to pack something, I just hope it's something that we can buy when we are there...and not something like "Bear" (Christopher's favorite toy...I think even Tamina wouldn't survive without bear there). I am however looking forward to SLEEPING (assuming that Justin will let me, he's been the one keeping me up the most lately). But to only have ONE child waking me up, that will be nice. And I can take a nice looooong shower without anyone coming in and saying "Mom, what doing?" or "Mom, E hurt." or "Mom? Me shower?" And then I get to go out shopping. If I want to try on some clothes there will be no "Hey, leave that door CLOSED!" and if I just want to do some window shopping there will be no "Too Far! Get back here!" "Stop teasing your brother" "I don't care if it's Lightning McQueen, I'm NOT paying that much for it" if I can get over this "I hope nothing happens" "I hope they are alright" "I hope they are having fun" kick, then it will be nice to be just me and Jon...well for at least one night. He's got an all day "interview" (they are going to show him around the plant and stuff), and we are going to dinner with his (hopefully) future boss and some other guys, (I think we might be having dinner with Kristin's Father-in-law and Mother-in-law...I don't know, I think one of the guys' last name was Owens that we are going to dinner with and I know her Father-in-law works at FMC). That would be an ice-breaker LOL, gotta love the "Lovell Connection".
Well, I think I have put it off long enough now, there is laundry that HAS to be done and packed TODAY! Oh, and before I forget, good luck to Ranee' and Adam, you have been in my prayers. I hope you get that one in Ephriam though if that's where you would be happy.